here is a wonderful way to start a blog:
I'm tired, sad, and a little depressed.
Unfortunately, this is how I just started it. Matt left today to go home, I realize he lives there but I dont want him to leave me here, and I dont want to go there- I like my job too much.
There is a chance I will have my job through the school year. Not sure how I feel about that yet, but I guess I can make time for it, I've always been pretty good about doing that. With FVEM and research and now a job, who needs sleep anyway? It would be nice to see Matt and do other things once in a while too.
A quote my Dad always said that will always stick with me; "Buck up little soldier" and I'm not sure if its a good thing or a bad thing that I will always remember when he said that to me. I guess it puts a new face on things: you can't change it so stop crying about it.
I've been reading a few of my friends' blogs. They seem to have such sucky lives right now, reading them usually make me happy or take my mind off of current matters, but the ones I've been reading are so depressing- "which job should I quit?", "I am stupid", and "I have no free time" seem to be the main issues right now- and not by just one of my friends- all three of these are in different blogs by my friends. I have these issues too- I think everyone does. Some of them put themselves in these positions, and I can understand why, getting a well-paying good experience job is so rare at this stage in our lives we often have to take a few crappy ones. If one (or two in some cases) good jobs open up and offer positions one would have to be half retarded to not take them, unfortunately this also means retaining a job previously committed to or take both nice jobs offered. This situation has plagued at least four of my friends and I'm baffled. I guess I didn't realize such a situation could be so widespread.
Sunday, July 30, 2006
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
Ramblings
Summer is almost over, six weeks left.
I like Summer and everything, but I'm ready for school to start again. It really sucks when the ones you love most are at least 100 miles away. Oh yeah, thanks Bush. Gas prices SUCK.
How is it that I'm working my ass off 40+ hours a week and I find myself completely broke?
We set up a 18-foot tall crystallizer today. So many people tell me that my summer is 'more productive' than the rest of my classmates. How can they know? They don't know my classmates. I go to school with a crapload of fricking Einstein children. They probably read textbooks in their freetime.
I guess it depends on your definition of 'more productive'
Matt and I have been going out for six months. He bought me a necklace. Nobody has ever done that for me. Its from a jewlery store- I really really hope he didn't spend too much on me, I already figure its way more than I've spent on him. I know 'its not the gift its the thought' or whatever, but I feel really really guilty when there is such a huge price difference.
On a happy note, we have been able to see each other fairly regularily. It really has made the Summer pass more quickly. Time goes by too fast when I see him, though. I miss him now.
Cassi's wedding was pretty fun. The relatives kept asking me about Matt. Ellie came. I was ignored for the most part, less than usual however. My Uncle was concerned about underage drinking. I was wondering what he expected: Cassi just turned 20, all of her friends are 19/20, she has two younger sisters who also had friends there, her husband is 20, his friends are 20. The only legal ones there were my Aunts and Uncles and her older brother. Obviously underage drinking would be a problem.
It was really great to see relatives and everyone, but it was great to be back here too. This was the first time I've flown in a long time, and the first time by myself. It was an awesome experience, and I can't wait to do it again.
Trav and Erica are coming down to see me in a week and a half. I can't wait. I guess some other Hibbing-ites might come. I think if they do, we should look at hotel rooms. I would feel really bad if I had a mini-party here while the Kaedings were gone and trusting me with their house. If it was my own house I probably wouldn't have a problem with it. I barely know these people, and would feel really really bad if too many people stayed here- it just looks wrong. As if I'm having a party when I'm really not.
I like Summer and everything, but I'm ready for school to start again. It really sucks when the ones you love most are at least 100 miles away. Oh yeah, thanks Bush. Gas prices SUCK.
How is it that I'm working my ass off 40+ hours a week and I find myself completely broke?
We set up a 18-foot tall crystallizer today. So many people tell me that my summer is 'more productive' than the rest of my classmates. How can they know? They don't know my classmates. I go to school with a crapload of fricking Einstein children. They probably read textbooks in their freetime.
I guess it depends on your definition of 'more productive'
Matt and I have been going out for six months. He bought me a necklace. Nobody has ever done that for me. Its from a jewlery store- I really really hope he didn't spend too much on me, I already figure its way more than I've spent on him. I know 'its not the gift its the thought' or whatever, but I feel really really guilty when there is such a huge price difference.
On a happy note, we have been able to see each other fairly regularily. It really has made the Summer pass more quickly. Time goes by too fast when I see him, though. I miss him now.
Cassi's wedding was pretty fun. The relatives kept asking me about Matt. Ellie came. I was ignored for the most part, less than usual however. My Uncle was concerned about underage drinking. I was wondering what he expected: Cassi just turned 20, all of her friends are 19/20, she has two younger sisters who also had friends there, her husband is 20, his friends are 20. The only legal ones there were my Aunts and Uncles and her older brother. Obviously underage drinking would be a problem.
It was really great to see relatives and everyone, but it was great to be back here too. This was the first time I've flown in a long time, and the first time by myself. It was an awesome experience, and I can't wait to do it again.
Trav and Erica are coming down to see me in a week and a half. I can't wait. I guess some other Hibbing-ites might come. I think if they do, we should look at hotel rooms. I would feel really bad if I had a mini-party here while the Kaedings were gone and trusting me with their house. If it was my own house I probably wouldn't have a problem with it. I barely know these people, and would feel really really bad if too many people stayed here- it just looks wrong. As if I'm having a party when I'm really not.
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
Happy Fourth of July!
For the Fourth of July. I was fortunate to share a four day weekend with Matt in New Ulm. It was an amazing four days, I wish they would have lasted longer. Now I won't see him for a while, but I think I can make it even though I will miss him like crazy.
Last Thursday my best friend from elementary school came to visit me. Alice and I have kept our friendship going for over 12 years, even though I don't get to see her that often. Its pretty amazing when you only see a good friend every so often; as soon as you meet again its as if you never seperated. Sure, things are a little different now, but she and I will always be friends and its really amazing to think how long friendships can last if given time and comittment. She is interning at a resort in Brainerd, MN for the summer, hence her ability to come visit me. I wish I could go visit her but it is very hard to get away, and when I do I see either Matt or family in Hibbing. This was her first time in a large city, and I was able to show her around and show off my horrible driving skills. Seriously, I've never driven as bad as I did when she was in the car. (ick). After getting lost, we made it to he Mall of America and ate at Hooters- great chicken wings, by the way. HAHA. We both purchased T-Shirts and were then attacked by mall vendors trying to sell hand cream from the Dead Sea. Apparently, this happens all the time.
Friday I was able to see the Devil wears Prada with Laurie C Missy Adam David and Ellen, college friends. The movie was pretty good, despite the fact that we had to wait in Applebees for two hours because I have a serious inability to plan anything lately.
Saturday, I finally saw Matt. We spent the best weekend I've had in a long time together. The weather was warm, New Ulm is beautiful, and best of all, it was with him. I guess I sound pretty pathetic when I say I miss him already and it hasn't even been a day since I've seen him last. The worst part is that I started to cry when I left-how embarassing. Except for that part, I had a great time, and I can't wait to see him again, even though it will be at least three weeks from now. Fortunately this period of long distance will end, and it isn't so bad now anyway. At least he tries to see me...
I only regret not spending more time with my own family this weekend. It isn't a very big regret, either. Mom seemed sad that I was not coming home, but I think she understood. I will see them in a week and a half if not in a few days anyway. Cassie's wedding is so close-it suprised me how fast it came. That means that over half of the summer is over, a bittersweet idea. Summer will be over, but I will get to see more of my friends and more of Matt again.
Now I just need to figure out how to get by in an airport... yeesh.. wish me luck!
Last Thursday my best friend from elementary school came to visit me. Alice and I have kept our friendship going for over 12 years, even though I don't get to see her that often. Its pretty amazing when you only see a good friend every so often; as soon as you meet again its as if you never seperated. Sure, things are a little different now, but she and I will always be friends and its really amazing to think how long friendships can last if given time and comittment. She is interning at a resort in Brainerd, MN for the summer, hence her ability to come visit me. I wish I could go visit her but it is very hard to get away, and when I do I see either Matt or family in Hibbing. This was her first time in a large city, and I was able to show her around and show off my horrible driving skills. Seriously, I've never driven as bad as I did when she was in the car. (ick). After getting lost, we made it to he Mall of America and ate at Hooters- great chicken wings, by the way. HAHA. We both purchased T-Shirts and were then attacked by mall vendors trying to sell hand cream from the Dead Sea. Apparently, this happens all the time.
Friday I was able to see the Devil wears Prada with Laurie C Missy Adam David and Ellen, college friends. The movie was pretty good, despite the fact that we had to wait in Applebees for two hours because I have a serious inability to plan anything lately.
Saturday, I finally saw Matt. We spent the best weekend I've had in a long time together. The weather was warm, New Ulm is beautiful, and best of all, it was with him. I guess I sound pretty pathetic when I say I miss him already and it hasn't even been a day since I've seen him last. The worst part is that I started to cry when I left-how embarassing. Except for that part, I had a great time, and I can't wait to see him again, even though it will be at least three weeks from now. Fortunately this period of long distance will end, and it isn't so bad now anyway. At least he tries to see me...
I only regret not spending more time with my own family this weekend. It isn't a very big regret, either. Mom seemed sad that I was not coming home, but I think she understood. I will see them in a week and a half if not in a few days anyway. Cassie's wedding is so close-it suprised me how fast it came. That means that over half of the summer is over, a bittersweet idea. Summer will be over, but I will get to see more of my friends and more of Matt again.
Now I just need to figure out how to get by in an airport... yeesh.. wish me luck!
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